Soundly my heart beats
Blood flows sliently
My pulse rate increases
Stretching out for my pen
Raising it one feet over my hand
Suddenly-
I sink it deeep on my left arm
Blood gashes out
Like water in a garage
My forehead heats up
So hot like red coal
My heart feels solid
I hold my breath thinking that
It would be a great mistake
This is the feeling i get
The thoughts i have
When nothing seems right
When betrayal crosses along my path
When my life is not worth living anymore
Why shoud i be happy?
No one would allow this to happen
when they have everything to make them happy
Depressed i feel
When i am all alone
Cuddling my teddy to sleep
mandy mercy mwende 
I hope you are fine
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I have been depressed before and each time I get depressed; I start to obsess over the idea of the beauty of death. I am not suicidal but at those moments I can’t wait to die. In such days I call to God for help and I pray about it while reading the Bible and God gives me victory.
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